she once was lost, well, sold

and now i have my schwinnster back hooray!

i seem to have lost a friend

and it sucks. i am sorry, i never felt those feelings towards him. i wish he could find the person he thinks i am in his idealized mind. but grow up and stop being so infantile. if he really cared for me he would be happy if i am happy. i don't know how to communicate to someone that doesn't listen. and i am happy.

2010 things i want in a man

so this year for new years i made this resolution: take better care of my skin and teeth. this includes flossing, using two types of mouthwash, as well as using a good cream cleanser and a pore refining moisturizer.

i also made a list of the 10 qualities i would like to find in a man. yes, some may be shallow (as we mentioned, kendall) but some are redeeming... they were, in this order:

1. a non smoker

2. athletic/plays some type of sport/runs/just does something

3. musical and or artistic

4. has a job they love

5. has a car

6. dark hair

7. 28 or older

8. volunteers w/ kids

9. weighs more than me

10. * puts out fantastically

now thats not too much to ask, is it?

nothing is ever easy

i think that's a lucky boys confusion lyric...kickback

well, nothing ever is easy i guess the working makes it worth it, right? long weekend at work. long nights out. ;)

day off tomorrow, i'm gonna run all over this town.

redikulous and realistic,

goals for the rest of the year:

have 3 art shows

buy a medium format printer

buy a car

find a man

save a bunch of money

quit drinking

do significant research for grad school

buy a few urls

make some websites

decorate my house

run a few 10ks

do something nice for my parents

spend a day with my grandma

nyc is neat!

empire state of mind

i am finally here with my best friend in the universe. i am so completely happy to leave my dear windy city for a long weekend.

it feels right to be around the people i love the most. i am so excited to share my plans for the future with the people who know my past.

also, kiki smith is at the brooklyn museum and i am STOKED to see some work in person of a woman who i feel i would understand if i met in person...

yay

seroiusly

i rolled up two days in a row dropping like, 30 each one at starbucks and i worked doubles too and i got a good yelp review and you thank everyone else by name but me.

love my job.

i met you as i was a train in wreck

and i didn't realize it until i ran into you again...literally after running. so yes, it was awkward but i think this time around you could get to know a better me. things have their way of working, we just need to wait patiently (which i fail at, usually)

impulsively i actually saw you twice today...once when i was walking and once again...

we'll see.

i'm just tired of the way things are. i want to share my city with someone.

i wake up so early

and don't get me wrong. i love the mornings. take your time with things. i am used to waiting.

work was slow and i'm scared but not worried. resilient and resourceful, i figure things out. i don't want to do this all alone, but i'm good for now... i'd rather try and lose then have not given it a go.

First complete accidental saturday off in quite some time. i honestly am worn out from this whole, working and moving and constantly doin stuff...sorry al, didn't mean to bail on the scavenger hunt thing. just, wow. it feels nice to sit.

the apartment is coming together! got the art space set up. totally stoked. drew out another part of my tattoo...it's gonna be sick...

did i mention it is good to sit down. willikers. long, long expensive expensive week. what am i gonna do? work early tomorrow too. well, it is very good to have a job, as that is not always the boat i get to ride on. right?

cannot wait for new york. cannot wait! frank and alex are gonna rock my socks for graduation weekend...hopefully we get to eat some fancy food...