bah

i am just not a mind reader. i am sitting over there thinking too much about what to say and when you tell me to do something i try but then i didn't do it the way you wanted me to so i dunno. i need a sign. should i quit or walk away or do you want me here or are you just waiting for something better to come along. fawk. also give me more credit... i see more than i say.

banking and accounting

i'd offer you a penny for your thoughts but you have a bakers dozen and i only have a dime
and i can't read your mind
i'm trying,

settle debts

i try i do but i have been in denial of a few things. hopefully tonight is better than the last

lake michigan shipwreck

it went down
it was magnificent, supposed to be
the windy city, her small sea
now there are oceans between us
the tides were rough

lookin for a new job

the one i have is fine. heck, the money is decent. it isn't fun anymore. its vegan, it isn't fine dining. yes, it is amazing quality vegan, but you can't go fine dining when you are cutting costs by not having enough hands on deck. if you want to be a full service restaurant you need a food runner everyday. adequate bussers. i'm just saying.

i wish i knew what to be when i grew up but i have never known. i guess that means i can never grow up.

things i realized while running

1. running with out music can be done but it is both painful and difficult. though, without jams blasting, i can now hear all the comments of people i pass by, like the men outside the liquor store...
2. even if they see you coming for a block, people are COMPLETELY unaware of their surroundings.
3. it is a given that fat people will waddle in groups of three and entirely take up the entire sidewalk...if not the obese, then someone with a double wide stroller will obviously intrude, especially when they go to scoop the poop from their waytolarge for city dog.
4. drinking fountains are crucial for hot and/or hungover run days. run accordingly.
5. people start to like seeing you day after day.

the perks of living alone

walking around naked for no reason

leaving the door to the bathroom open so you can hear the music while you shower

not dealing with someone else's pets

control of decorations

not having to hoard/risk eating someone else's food

listening to whatever music i want to

not having to share the tv

freedom to have house guests ;)

getting irked

not inked.

i really dislike somethings. i do. i am a pretty straightforward individual. i value my friendships and my time. i hate when people make plans with you then don't answer their phones, when 1. i know you are the type to continually check your phone every 3 minutes to make sure you aren't missing anything cool, and 2. you actually post photos to your facebook from your mobile uploads album from the event you were supposed to be meeting me at... hell, i hate when you don't respond cause i know you keep your phone at no longer than an arms length.

also, really. i don't get that many nights off and i hate my job for taking away like, 2 of my shifts. wtf.

also, wtf. all i'm sayin.

so much for the afterglow....

tried to make friends meet up with me but obviously, they are all too cool :( and she and him would have been just fine, just fine. i didn't mind the crowd. i didn't mind sitting alone. i was even ok with getting blown off. but really, did a 350 lb man need to stand 2 feet infront of me and dance? ass to the face!!!! ok, maybe i'm salty i got blown off.

whateves. today was marginally successful...8 mile jog. gym. laundry. bank. grocery shopping. although fricken domincks sold me moldy cheese which would be fine if it was supposed to be bleu cheese but it was fricken low-fat part skim mozzorella. wtf. so much for that.

proactively beating the june gloom

goals for joooooon:

1. not eat bar food! (unless it's a straight up salad)

2. bike to work

3. save money (money...no mas cab rides, 5 dolla starbucks...)

4. ride a ferris wheel

5. jog as much as possible

6. gym everyother day

7. draw something everyday

8. find a second job

9. have more fun

10. enjoy the good weather