it makes me blue

i just want to be near you

and you think you see me too much

why am i doing this

you should know...

i have never
ever
stuck by anyone
i didn't think i could spend forever with.

I am not sure if you are
or sure if you're not

but if you are willing to stick it out
i am too.

can't sleep

done a lot of stupid things
put myself in harms way
tempted fate
tested myself
failed
succeeded

he asks if i'm running from my past
i am
if i go fast enough
it won't catch up
but ghosts,
those ghouls they haunt my dreams
or lack there of

what was the moment i went left instead of right?
what karmic bounds did i push
what did i do to you?
i only wanted to hurt myself, but that was then

and now?
now, i lie here and stare
and wonder

have i run fast enough
or is the sky going to come crashing down

i just want to grow. again.