you can't always get what you want

but if you wait long enough what you get needs you.

i think i'm taking a break, the swing of things
been too much to accomplish or attempt anything.
i want to save money and take trips,
i want to recover, and make lists
i think i will become recluse, and yet
this is the month i've looked most forward too
i still do
August i'm ready for you

wierdest day of my life

.

omgd

really? how subtle do i need to be?

it should be me...

holy canniloni. i'm not sure what to say. haven't been feeling for a while, so that sucks. been talking to the one i miss the most but that won't bring them back. and the second one i miss the most but they are east coast held.
i only want to be the girl to end all girls. not too much to ask, is it?

on self time..

maybe i like it, spending time alone. maybe i like this.
maybe i hate it. the only person judging me isn't really someone but
merely a gato... an orange one.
maybe i'm lazy. and maybe i'm crazy.
maybe i want too much but don't do enough.
wtf
.

restless again

my feline can sense it, he won't leave me alone
he shares paranoia, with the other
she wants me to come on home

i want to jump off county line bridge,
a symbolic summer, anthems for a 17 year old girl
it was so much easier being kids

we felt infinite and we felt alive

nobody gets me like you

it's a pretty lyric... i seem to be on a spoon bender.



it's cooler today, some chance of rain
spots on the sidewalk
i'm thinking again

i look different, he acts the same
my eyes want to talk
i just don't pretend

so let's articulate
our thoughts in the dark
a box of wine
alone in the park
and talk about
when we first felt, lightning bugs...

you don't even know that i can't stop thinking of you

spring fling

try it on for size
you say you like things your way
i'm feeling extra medium.

lets go to grad school

for real this time. I love art and i will always be an artist at heart but i know i need to make a difference in the world and art is just not the method to do so. i am a hundred times smarter than i know i seem, wasting my college degree waiting tables in a FRICKEN vegan restaurant.

depaul has a program, one i should get accepted into... totally hopeful, which is nice as i have been feeling down lately.

irrational me

all i wanna do is go to the fricken movies. instead i sit around and drink wine and over-analyze and get all worked up over nothing only to pull something stupid on one of the people i care about and now i got to sit around feeling guilty. i'm sorry, i'm sorry. i have no idea why i have been feeling so irrational for the past week or so. it seriously is hurting me internally.

all dressed up with no where to go

you criticize my outfits but when i put on something nice you blow me off... you'll probably make me third wheel next time we hang out anyway. just saying.

the universe has thrown me a bone

And it came via the United States Postal Service!!!!

so after thinking long and hard about what the heck to be when i grow up i reflected back on previous things i had enjoved and came to the conclusion that the best job i have held was when i worked for PBS...so after doing much research have found a few programs where i can apply to and get a masters in communication! wahoo! and then, today in the mailbox was a bunch of information from depaul and i can get a masters in organizational and multicultural communications!