god i love

your hands
eye contact
learning

i want you
all of it
yearning

whoa

standing on two feet

having hopes
having dreams
fighting for something

keeping friends
keeping time
making drawings
living a full life

you don't have to take care of me

i just want a partner

to listen to me
and not judge

i feel things
some, illogical
some based on the past
some rooted in hope for the future

every tear isn't a symptom of co-dependency
its just my mind sweating,
from wrestling with my heart

it makes me blue

i just want to be near you

and you think you see me too much

why am i doing this

you should know...

i have never
ever
stuck by anyone
i didn't think i could spend forever with.

I am not sure if you are
or sure if you're not

but if you are willing to stick it out
i am too.

can't sleep

done a lot of stupid things
put myself in harms way
tempted fate
tested myself
failed
succeeded

he asks if i'm running from my past
i am
if i go fast enough
it won't catch up
but ghosts,
those ghouls they haunt my dreams
or lack there of

what was the moment i went left instead of right?
what karmic bounds did i push
what did i do to you?
i only wanted to hurt myself, but that was then

and now?
now, i lie here and stare
and wonder

have i run fast enough
or is the sky going to come crashing down

i just want to grow. again.

that was hot

unexpected
and wonderful
reminds me why i wait sometimes
thats the hardest part

waiting
waiting

yours