well hell

two jobs...starting to catch up to me...

So... tbiltm contacts me. ok. great. what a stupid mind fuck. I don't think anything will ever come of this which is, tragic. but at least i know i wasn't making everything up in my head. how do you move on from that tho.

i let go the one i was seeing because i would never feel for him the way i felt for tbiltm. and he was terrible for my self-esteem and wouldn't shut up about his "hot black girl friend" he once had... so fuck that. what about the hot young girl friend he could have had if he had only opened his eyes to see what was there before it walked away?

so all you idiots who i try to give my heart to. stop being dbags. i have an infinte capacity to be the best lover, friend ever. don't fucking call me if you just need to get something off your consciense. fuck you. don't fucking claim me, but not want to acknowledge me until someone else seems interested. don't fucking tell me you only like people with "real jobs." don't blame your fucking insecurities on me. don't fucking pretend you want a relationship then fucking send me home at midnight. all you...